So, as I knew would happen, I've not been the most sane lately. Not too bad. It's very much tied in with my physical well-being. My blood pressure rose to the point that a med student friend almost drove me to the hospital there and then when she measured it. My resting heart rate was over 90, compared to 50 normally. Mind racing. No concentration. Physically shaking, with many people in work asking me if I'm cold... perhaps I am some of the time, my homeostasis seems to be a bit off generally lately. I'm also incredibly tetchy. My normally infinite self control is very thin at the moment and I have snapped at a few people... it must be terrible to live on aggressive impulses like that all the time. People like that should be locked up ;)
I thought I may as well go to the doctor so I did my research beforehand and bonded with him over his favourite TV program and the car he'd just bought, to ensure he took care of me and wouldn't put anything in my notes I didn't want. So now I've been given some beta-blockers which have taken my heart rate and BP down. I'm still shaking though, and weirdly the insomnia is now fine at night (getting to sleep before midnight sometimes!) but now I'm waking between 4 and 6 and not getting back to sleep - that has never happened before; once I'm asleep I have never had a problem staying asleep. I've slept through a smoke alarm, in a noisy pub, and in the back of a helicopter doing low level maneuvers.
More test results tomorrow, hopefully ruling out anything very bad. 96% likely that it is just a manic phase combined with work stress, combined with no weed to slow down my mind, combined with not enough sleep. But that 4% should be ruled out - e.g. liver/kidney/thyroid/adrenal gland problem. I should be very disappointed if it turned out I were mortal after all! ;)